“Hidamari ga Kikoeru” by Fumino Yuki
I posted this on my personal blog and then figured I should probably share it here as well! Hidamari ga Kikoeru is Fumino Yuki’s debut work, released through Canna just over a month ago, and has made somewhat of a splash all things considered. It’s such a lovely story–usually I’m not a fan of angst or sad subplots in my BL but this was a sadness that was not only very real but also very well-handled and had nothing to do with the usual relationship drama.
the story starts with college student Taichi, who comes from a not-so-well-off household and is desperately searching for work. He (literally) stumbles across fellow student Kouhei while on a job hunt, and is incredibly enticed by the delicious bento Kouhei has in hand. However, something seems a bit off about Kouhei–and when Taichi consults his friends about it, he gets an answer he really wasn’t expecting: Kouhei is severely hearing impaired.
and because of his problems hearing, Kouhei currently is in severe need of a note-taker for his classes. Thus an agreement is found between the two: Taichi will take notes for Kouhei in class, and Kouhei will bring Taichi a delicious homemade bento every time they have class together. (Though Kouhei easily keeps up his part of the bargain, Taichi has a bad habit of falling sleep in class…)
while Kouhei’s hearing is poor, he can still understand when spoken to loudly and clearly in close proximity, so he and Taichi–who excels at loud, boisterous speech–get on with ease. Kouhei lost his hearing due to a severe fever in middle school, and thus spent the entirety of his high school and early college life slowly becoming distanced from his fully-abled peers. So Taichi’s willingness to stick by his side warms his heart.
and in turn Taichi becomes incredibly protective of Kouhei. From people who badmouth his disability to those who romanticize it, Taichi is willing to stick up for Kouhei as the warm, kind person Taichi knows him to be.
their first meeting on the roof where Kouhei initially hides from his peers during lunch.
Taichi standing up for Kouhei after punching one of their classmates lmao.
“It’s not your fault that you can’t hear!” while all this time Kouhei had been blaming himself for his peers’ cold treatment.
the most painful part of this story is when Kouhei doesn’t hear someone the first time and when he asks them to repeat themselves, they just laugh it off like “eh it wasn’t a big deal.” This isn’t a huge deal to most people (and I know I do it all the time), but the problem is he really wants to hear–whether it’s important big things or just small talk, he wants to know what his friends are saying. So for him “oh it’s nothing important” is an incredibly cruel phrase.
this actually hit me really damn hard, every time someone said this to him.
Kouhei’s favorite thing about Taichi is that Taichi really appreciates and loves food. One of his favorite things to hear is Taichi going “delicious~!!” while he eats haha.
to Kouhei, more than finding a woman who will love him even with his near-deafness, all he really wants in his life is one important person who will be there to try and understand him.
Taichi telling a young woman off after she wants him to set her up with Kouhei and then romanticizes his disability.
Kouhei requested his mother make a hamburger steak special for Taichi, and so Taichi tells him the important story of his parent-less childhood and why hamburger steak means so much to him… and Kouhei doesn’t hear any of it.
this scene hurt so much because in his embarrassment over trying to tell Kouhei such an intimate and personal story, when Kouhei asks what he said, Taichi respond with “oh nothing haha it wasn’t important w/e w/e”
cries my heart /o\
Kouhei being told that his hearing is starting to get worse. ;;
Taichi jokes “you really love seeing me that much huh, to stand in the rain!” and Kouhei responds “yeah… I love (it)”
and then they fight and Kouhei breaks off their relationship, because he’s afraid of both his hearing loss and losing Taichi.
Kouhei at the doctor’s getting his hearing tested, thinking about how one of the most painful parts of truly losing his hearing is that he won’t be able to hear Taichi anymore.
f u c k
Taichi getting caught in the act of explaining to a friend how important Kouhei is to him.
ahhhhhhhhhhhhh THIS COUPLE!!!! I AM SO DISTRAUGHT!!!
anyway I really really really recommend this book!!! It’s really lovely and I sincerely enjoyed the way Kouhei’s hearing was handled–both Kouhei and Taichi were such wonderful, sweet, cute characters who each had their fair share of depth. There were some devastatingly sad moments but in the end since you know Taichi will be there to hold Kouhei’s hand through the worst moments it’s still very heartwarming. ;;